Thursday, July 5, 2012

Gian

I am a cat. Not a kitty, not a house-pet, but a cat. I live with my human, a female named Piper, and The Dog. Piper calls me Gian. I consider myself lucky to have escaped Fluffy or Mittens.

We live in a small yellow house in the trees. I like the house, and I like Piper. She is a good human because she worries just the right amount. My water is always fresh (not that I don’t drink from The Dog’s bowl anyway – it’s amusing) and my food is better than the usual human pellets. Piper recognizes that cats have more refined palettes than dogs.

I also like Piper’s male, Jordan. He doesn’t live with us; he lives far away in a different house with different cats. He visits once or twice a year, and I remember him because he doesn’t mind when I sleep on the table. Piper always sighs and puts me on my tower. She’s picky about her food, my human. Her male is less picky. He lets me sniff his plate when he finishes eating, and sometimes forgets to rinse out his cereal bowl. I have a fondness for raisin bran and milk. I also like sandwich crusts and breaded shrimp.

Piper is a writer. She and Jordan argue about it sometimes, because she doesn’t make a lot of money and he is still in School. I understand that money means food, but beyond that their arguments are boring. Piper doesn’t mind when I sleep on her desk while she writes; the sound of her tapping lulls me. I am a champion sleeper, except at night. There’s less light to hurt my eyes at night, and I hunt The Dog and the curtains and my mouse. If Piper wasn’t so clean we might have live mice to hunt.

I enjoy the night. I have a small plastic door that lets me come and go as I choose, and I often sit on the porch and watch the visitors in our yard. We have raccoons, which are fastidious but not very polite; owls, who like to pounce almost as much as I do; and deer. Piper hates deer, but she always makes sure the birdbaths are filled before she goes to sleep. If she would let me patrol the garden instead of keeping me on the porch, I would make sure the deer didn’t eat her delphiniums.

Tonight is the last night of Jordan’s summer visit. Piper was distracted during dinner, and only filled my bowl halfway. I decided not to clean her hair while she read as I usually do, but she and Jordan went to bed early and shut the door. Even The Dog wasn’t allowed in.

It is cool tonight. I sit on the porch table and watch the stars shine through the tree branches. The wind smells extra fresh; I can scent the rabbit family sleeping in their burrow under the rhododendron and the owl sitting in the tree above them. The wind smells so good that it hardly seems worth enjoying from a wood and screen box. I keep my claws sharp on the underside of the futon, and on my tower. It takes a breath to cut a neat hole in the screen and I’m free.

The garden is full of shadows and mystery – my favorite. Piper is a good human, but I’m meant for more than a cushy, dry-food lifestyle. I want mouse tonight. I want to challenge myself and catch a thrill.

I find a mouse trail easily enough. Holding my weight in my shoulders I follow it through the dry grass and leaf litter. Piper dislikes outside work and tends to dump her old yard waste into the woods. Balanced on a fallen branch, I listen with my mouth as well as my ears. I can feel a mouse heartbeat fluttering in my throat. My eyes narrow and I slow my own heartbeat. My first kill will be perfect. I have practiced enough times, on my fake mouse and in my dreams. I am a wild cat, a silent and efficient hunter. The mouse doesn’t stand a chance.

I am full of pellets, but I eat some anyway, the way Piper sometimes has a second helping of cake. I bury the rest, for my next visit to the woods. The moon has almost set. Time means little to me (I am a cat, after all), but I do like to keep my routine. Piper will need me today after Jordan leaves. She always smells like bleach and overcooked peas after Jordan leaves. I think it is the smell of sadness.

When I return to the porch I get a surprise: Piper is up and sitting in a chair. I meow a question as I ease back inside and sit down to lick my ruffled fur. She tugs her old grey sweatshirt closer and folds her body around the cup in her hands.

“I miss him already, Gian,” she says in a voice too small for her body. She doesn’t smell like peas yet and there is only the faintest whiff of bleach. But I know my job, and really, I enjoy it (although not the same way The Dog does). I jump onto the table and she puts her cup down and lifts me into her lap. “You’re always here for me. My sweet boy.” Her fingers find the spot under my chin that makes me shut my eyes and purr. Piper is a good human. She knows where cats like to be rubbed. I think sometimes, when I see Jordan rub her, that she is part cat.

She doesn’t stay long with me; only long enough for the bleach smell to fade and her usual twilight smell to return. Carrying me over her shoulder, my head under her ear, she hums under her breath as we go upstairs. I am allowed to sleep in the bed with her when Jordan isn’t here; when he is, I sleep in the chair. The Dog is jealous because he has to sleep in the hall. I give him a smug blink over Piper’s shoulder as she shuts the door.

I don’t sleep as I watch Piper curl up next to Jordan. I am the watch cat in moments like these; Piper depends on me to keep her and her male safe. I sit with my front paws folded under my chin and survey the room, noting every shadow and breath of air. Piper looks very small next to her male.

I wonder what they dream of. Not mice, but maybe the mouse-equivalent for humans. Wondering about it and keeping guard occupy me until sunrise. Jordan wakes first (he slept through the night) and looks at Piper for a long time. Then he looks at me.

“Keep an eye on her, ok Gian?” I lift my head and blink at him; slowly because he is a bit dim for not realizing I do so without being asked. He relaxes back down next to Piper and I cross my paws, close my eyes, and calculate the time until I can next visit the garden and the woods and the wild.

FINIS

Wednesday, July 4, 2012

Within

James watched as the young boy plopped his tiny, round body on the soft, green grass. A smile crept onto his face as the fair skinned, blonde haired, blue-eyed five year old began to bounce up and down on his bottom like any other kid high on sugar would. Maybe he shouldn’t have bought him ice cream today. His brown “paperboy” hat, plaid shirt, and brown trousers made him all the more adorable and James couldn’t help but to let out a small chuckle. This kid was growing on him.

The little boy turned his head to James with a large grin on his face as he patted the area of grass beside him. Even his cerulean blue eyes were smiling, laughing almost. James sat down beside him, his own blue eyes smiling as well. He hoped that he could always smile like this.

“James,” said the young boy, “Why do people lie?”


Taken aback, James eyes began to look at the little boy with wonder. Why was such a wise question coming out of a five year old’s mouth? The little boy’s face read no emotion as his eyes stared blankly to the couple in front of them.

“Why do you ask such a question?”
“Because, everybody lies to me. Always. I am little, but I still know. I know what they say. I know what they mean. I don’t like it. Why do they lie to me? Why do mom and dad lie to me?” He asked in a tone full of a child’s innate curiosity and innocent rage.

James was stuck. He too began to stare at the couple in front of them. The woman had light, chestnut brown hair and blue eyes with skin so fair, the slightest ray of sun would turn it red. Her large sun-hat shadowed her face and she wore a long yellow dress with a white cotton shirt. A laugh escaped from her pink mouth and James couldn’t help, but to think how beautiful she looked. The man wore a white short-sleeved button up shirt with khaki shorts. He had blonde hair with blue eyes that were hidden behind a pair of sporty sunglasses. They looked good together.

“I don’t know why people lie.” James answered with genuine honesty.

The little boy kept his gaze on the couple.
“I think people lie because they are scared. They are scared of the real answer. The...”

James looked at the boy who couldn’t seem to find the right word as his eyebrows began to gather towards the center. But he knew what it was, and he was right.

“Truth.” James said, finishing it for him. “We are scared of the truth.”

The little boy returned his attention back to James with a smile and a nod. “But I am not. I am not scared. I don’t want the lie. I want the...” he paused for a second to recall the word, “...truth.”

James looked at the little boy whose eyes were wide with innocence that wanted so badly to be believed.


“Can you tell me the truth?” he asked.

James looked back over to the couple. The woman was now waving her arms in the air as she screamed “Nolan!” in a voice that sounded so sweet to his ears. Returning his gaze, he stared into Nolan’s cerulean blue eyes that looked at him with hope. They reminded him of his own blue eyes when he was a child.

“Yes.” he replied, but how could he? Especially when that was a lie within itself.